I utilize all my time poorly. But I find comfort in sorrow. Irreconcilable thoughts.

Happiness scares me, so much. Happiness scares me, so much.
Happiness scares me, so much. Happiness scares me, so much.

My emotions swirl, swell, spill over, my eyes, flow with fat tears.

Happiness scares me, so much. Happiness scares me, so much.
Happiness scares me, so much. Happiness scares me, so much.

Burdened down with expectations, this educated kitten,
Chases hurriedly after the last revolutionary.

This depiction must end someday, intellectually I do know, but the light can’t touch me, and death isn’t simple.

Burdened down with expectations, this educated kitten,
Chases hurriedly after the last revolutionary.
Would somebody please drag me, deep down into hell?
I need somewhere I can call, my destination.